Musical Friday – Snow

Zion.T – Snow

Since the snow will melt soon…might as well.

Today marked the end of my 4th semester here. Officially 3 months left. Ill be glad to be done as this upcoming semester will be my worst. Ill have about 70 different students to interact w every week. Possibly 40 essays to mark every week (unless I can swing w paragraph/opinion writing). On top of that, I have classes where parents are very concerned about certain issues, may it be past mistakes, complaints about others, or other issues they’d like addressed by us. So…it took an entire week to figure out a schedule where we could avoid bleeding losses. This was the best option…but I don’t know how well Ill be able to manage it :T Fingers Crossed this goes well. Prayers that I don’t get sick from the stress weakening my body. I did get this immune booster vitamin from a parent of one of my students as a gift, so I hope that will help too xD


Happy New Year

Honestly it’s wild how quickly a year passes…

Anyway, since its the first day both back home and (still) right now in Korea…

Here’s a few things I learned/reminded of…

  • AHA & BHA are now mandatory for my skin. Saw how they worked, saw how my skin reacted when I got lazy. Lesson learned? Don’t be lazy.
  • Save. Even if it is a little. Do it. People aren’t kidding when they say that you need to.
  • People can be jerks no matter what you do. Though its hard, don’t let them harden your heart to others.
  • Even if it’s silly, enjoy the silly things you like to do. The end game is your happiness.
  • Rest. I worked a lot while I was in Korea my first time around. My almost three month break was very much needed.
  • People change. No matter how close you think you were.
  • Invest in some quality pieces. I do love my $10 deals in Korea, but some need a bit more cash to last.
  • Document life somehow. You see, if you have horrible memory like me, there are some things you’ll want to remember. Thats why, Instagram, an email account, secret blog, notes on your phone, all these can be helpful later.
  • It’s okay to be a little afraid. Really. Just don’t let it paralyze you. That’s when the trouble happens. This year was a reminder of that.

I know this blog isn’t what it used to be…but at least it is still my little space in this cyber world.

Hope your first day started well :)

Musical Friday – Jesus Freak

DC Talk – Jesus Freak

A church Oppa I knew was the one who introduced this group to me. We used to exchange emails, and talk about different music. When he moved to Korea to study medicine at Yonsei, he would periodically attach music to emails to check out. He has a younger sister, but he liked having another lol. So much time has passed. He married a lovely lady, and has a little girl himself.

Anyway, that’s not the point. The point is, despite how much I did like this group, it doesn’t seem to have made its way onto the blog. Scandalous.

This one popped up again recently, as I had a random talk with some girls I know. One is 25, and the other 28. At one point, we talked about religion. Normally a difficult topic to discuss. It was fine…until one of the parties forgot that I had mentioned I was technically (don’t get me started on this…but we will leave that word there for now) Christian, and went on a what I like to label as a tirade. The thing is, I know she didn’t mean to put it in the ways that she did. I also understand that we all have our own opinions. I also know that we can criticize in a way that does not challenge the mental ability of a person because of their beliefs. I have had discussions in the past with my best friend who is Muslim, and with another who is Atheist. With those, we could conclude by pondering the points that the others have made. The challenge in that way, was to help us reflect in the way that we act and follow in our own beliefs. I’m never upset in these situations, since we pose in a way that is not to challenge your intelligence, no matter how absurd it might seem.

So, it was interesting to have been challenged in a different way.

The conversation still resonates with me. (I wrote  this a few months back, and honestly still lingers in my mind. It isnt easy seeing people you like in a different light.)

It’s funny how our standings change from one point in life, to another. Which is why I keep thinking back to this song. How I used to be when I heard this first, and how it is now.

Musical Friday – Habits

Maria Mena – Habits ft. Mads Langer
A song I heard while I was in Okinawa. I was at Starbucks, and desperately trying to catch this song on Shazzam. It was hard. But, did it in the end.

Love that the two vocals play together.

Guys, have you done something out of necessity, rather than desire?
I guess if I put it that way, we all have.
I’m going to have to do something out of necessity, rather than desire. I know it sounds silly, but I truly believed 2017 was my year. Then this and that happened at the end of 2016, which…messed up everything for 2017. But the year just started, how can it mess everything up?! It can. So…2018 will have to be my year. But, as I get older, it gets harder and harder to really want to do that which is motivated by passion.

I was at a friends house a little while ago, and it was just amusing. I loved seeing everyone. But, the way that the conversation was steered. For example, basically out of 10 topics, I could contribute to only 2. Which isn’t a bad thing, and in no way was I pressured. However, my inner self won’t let me stop comparing.

Anyway, I heard the same points I heard last time. But, if I think about money, this is the best option for me at this time. Hopefully this will prep me better for 2018, rather than being in debt for too long. I just finished off paying my undergrad, and college debt from my first round.

Winding down D-31

Yesterday marked the end of my teaching obligations. I have to go into work for one more week. Just to help out with the transition, as a lot changes next week.

Then, I’ll have a week to do all the major things that I want to do in Korea. It’s nice cause I also rented out the room for an additional week. After that, I will be living from a small backpack. Let’s also hope I can find a coin operated washing machine in the city…I actually don’t know if they exist…

But, this is not the point of the post.

Yesterday, I popped into work. Though I am done teaching, I needed to clean up my classroom, and wanted to see the younger kids I taught for a year and a half.

I also dropped off a box of cookies for one of the classes, as they had asked for them 3 months ago, and I didn’t get a change to give them. I ensured that I brought back an extra box just for them when I was back in Toronto in October.

So, I saw M and R.
They were so cute. The R started crying, which made me tear up. I told her that today was not the day to cry, since she would see me for one more week. So, let’s cry next week instead. She agreed.

But, she said…

“Esther teacher, I miss your words!!!!!”
“What do you mean?”
**clings onto my arm…**
“Say, ‘FAIL, Kiddos…’ pleassseeeeeee…”
“I miss those words…they way you said it! PLEASE!”
“Not like that teacher, like the way you say it when I dropped my cookie before.”
**Now I am laughing…**
“Omg R you are so weird!”
“M, she said weird!, I forgot that one, I missed that one too”
**Both girls are nodding, and giggling at this point**
**R does her happy dance**
“Now I feel like I can live xD”

This made me laugh so hard.
I know if I said this back home to a student, I’d be reprimanded. However, they know I don’t mean it in that way. They know my sayings are terms of endearment. Things I would only say if I loved them. And I do.

I know it was my fault. I just didn’t want to work the crazy schedules of holding 3 different positions. But, I know that I stayed in that position, I would have stayed until February, or at least before the summer.

That was my fault.

How do I know this?

Cause of the interactions like this.
They bring me a side clutching laugh, and happy memories.


Night time thoughts…

Is started typing this, but I couldn’t find a way to condense it.

Back in high school, I lost a teammates ring during softball practice. We were practicing for the tournament that was coming up (I played centre, and third base).

Grandmas ring that was given to her before she passed.

You see, you shouldn’t wear rings in the event of an accident, and your fingers swell/cut off circulation. So, she popped it into my pant pocket. Unfortunately I didn’t know there was a hole, can you believe it?!

We were all over the field for practice. I skipped classes & spent 3 hrs combing that field, praying that we didn’t stomp it into the soil. I eventually found it. But with consequences.

Currently trying to do something similar right now with life. I’m persistent…but I find that as I’ve gotten older, I give up faster than I used to. I think that is also why I’m thankful I have people around me who push me, encourage me when I get down.

Thank you.
In the last 3 years, you have no idea how much your interactions, no matter how little, have been for me.

Trying to remember my blessings, and trying to stay optimistic.

As a side note, I desperately wanted to be on the school softball team. I went to tryouts with a broke toe. I actually ran laps around the field near my house. I worked on footwork to try and be more responsive. I was proud when I made it. I was lucky that I was able to throw further, and more accurately than most of the other girls.

To my dear HJ…

Today is your special day.
This last half year hasn’t been easy for you…but you have finally made it.
You are here, and married to your guy.

To say that things will be easy, would be a lie. And you know this.
However, the love that you share, and the understanding that you both possess.
I hope and pray that they will guide you in this new journey together.

Know that I am always here to support you. Since you are Plan A xD

Love you, and I’m so glad that I got to go through this with you.